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Oh, what beautiful memories we start to create when we first fall in love. It is like a bud blooming overnight into a fantastic flower with its hypnotic scent…..like a metamorphosis, from a larva to a wonderful butterfly! We have now opened our hearts to deeper feelings ( even though it may just be an infatuation) , but for us, it is an incredible feeling ..a new awakening to a world filled with romance! We only have eyes for each other..we have our own world..a garden filled with roses. We are so happy in each other’s company, and , when we are apart, we still think of each other , sometimes with jealousy. We are never afraid to show our love in public because , as far as we are concerned, we are made for each other. Two has become one. That is our destiny! But with all new love awakening, there is discord….the first is that green eyed monster named Jealousy! As the years go by, we are more in control of our love feelings..if it was infatuation, it may lead to a separation or even a stronger link with our love because now there is understanding. So now , let’s consider that we break up and find another love, will we make the same mistakes as before? Our understanding of what really love is or involves has broadened! But I really will like to believe that no matter what happens through the passing years, we may never be able to fully forget our first love….that person who was able to awaken our sleeping hearts to a dazzling world of learning to love, even though it may just have been infatuation! As the saying goes, first love never really dies!

Once we are alive , we experience pain. From the time we are born to the time we expire, there is pain! We feel physical pain maybe because of an accident..or by someone deliberately hurting us. Sometimes we undergo surgery and then here comes the master of pain…physical therapy! When doing that , we feel tremendous pain as if our lives are being taken away from us but it is for our own well being. Some people endure the full course while some quit! We cannot criticize those who leave because we don’t know their pain and how much they can handle. Of course, we are given pain medication , but how much does it help? So apart from the physical pain, there is also the emotional stress! Probably we cannot afford the basics of life , or loss of a loved one , or being rejected in love . Whatever the case maybe, we feel that hurt…we cannot focus on simple things. We seek the help of specialists! Does that help? Only those who have experienced that can answer! What about trying to help ourselves by doing something on our own. Be it physical or emotional, let’s focus on something entirely different ….something beautiful…something relaxing. We are not concentrating on our pain, but our thoughts are elsewhere. Let’s leave the pain behind, and move to greener pastures, so to speak! We try not to be aware of that intense pressure, but project our thoughts away from it….one day at a time. Then again, instead of making pain our enemy, let us befriend it!

Alcoholism is terrible…should be compared to the living dead. Apart from creating havoc to your loved ones, you are doing the same to society! You will probably steal, cheat or do worse things to feed the parasite. Take a look at yourself in the mirror…both when you’re sober and when you are highly intoxicated…compare the difference. The picture is totally projecting two different personalities…like Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde! Then there is also that endless one person dialogue that drives people crazy. Regardless whether they are in the streets, or in the woods or even at home, people who care still try to help in one way or another .In some cases, there is success, and what joy that brings…..like a resurrection…like a new page..like a brand new day! Sometimes , regardless of how much effort we put in, we still fail…words cannot describe our sorrow..our pain…our disappointment. We even seek the help of the law…..which states that the alcoholics have to make the first move! How can we move a broken car, unless we request the service of a tow truck to take it in for service. There has to be a better way to help our fellow human beings!!

This word is usually delivered with genuine feelings and an expression of deep sorrow. Some people really abuse it and, therefore, this word should not be in their vocabulary! In our daily lives, we hurt people in one way or another ..maybe physically or emotionally! We hit them without any real reason…..maybe we are bullies taking out our anger on weaker people….robbing them of material things or of their innocence …and it doesn’t end there! We sometimes don’t take care of our homes or family! So we figure that by saying SORRY , everything will be forgiven! We feel that we are making our confession in front of the priest, thus absolving ourselves from all wrongdoing..even the emotional abuse of others! So is that it ? Are we on a brand new page…turning over a new leaf? Then we repeat our wrongdoing …relentlessly abusing, lying, cheating and being bullies. To make matters worse, we do this to our loved ones…..and then we again say I AM SORRY..IT WON’T HAPPEN AGAIN! Are we fooling ourselves….is that our nature ?…Why don’t we make an honest effort to do right …then we just may find the peace that we are so desperately seeking? So quit saying SORRY…..let that word rest ! The page with the word “sorry ” should be torn out from the dictionary…and only then , we may be able to replace it by saying “NEED HELP ” ! Please treasure what you have! Why don’t we just enjoy the beautiful things of life,regardless of what little we may have because, soon we will all become dust that will be blown into oblivion,,,,,,and be no more ? Our greatest fear comes from the past because we have experienced it , not from the unknown future, and that’s why the past always haunts us …so will you just let go of ”SORRY” ?

Are we living a lie? Is this our life….is is what we want…. is this what we are? Are we doing this to please anyone….or is this way a getaway from our grief…our past..our disappointment ? Only we can answer this question! We smile when there is nothing to smile about…we laugh when all we want to do is cry….we are among friends when all we want is to be alone! Sometimes we are poor and want to live like rich persons. ..and vice versa. We sometimes change our lifestyle to please someone or to improve our chances at love! Why don’t we just be ourselves and avoid future problems ? Other times we are so traumatized physically and emotionally that we behave in a totally different manner,,,,even our best friends don’t recognize us…but do they try to fathom the reasons behind our change ? Who knows? But do we care? I GUESS NOT ! For us, our behavior ..our life style is normal because that is the frame of mind in which we are! When people are like this, we need to reach out and touch… we need to help…we need to hear their cries ! Living a lie deliberately is not something we should attempt ,,,we are robbing ourselves of our own time …our own lives…let people appreciate us for who we really are. and not our fake images which we are projecting. So don’t waste your lives,,,,believe in yourselves! Stop living a lie……………

Apart from being a word with several letters, it also means a very heavy weight on your shoulders! For some , it may be a joy because they are taking care of their loved ones. We all have responsibility from the time we are very young to the time we expire. Some young ones start taking care of their even younger siblings because of various reasons…they are probably homeless…they have no food…their parents have passed away or are alcoholics! As we become older, we take on more because we wish to do so or out of necessity! We interact with more people and our shoulders become broader. We acquire jobs which require much attention and we stand up to the task, doing our best. We have a family and provide for them unconditionally! Even , in various walks of life, responsibility shows up…we meet and greet it with honor. But not everyone has this built in their character. There are the shirkers who look for loopholes to evade it…procrastination is the thief of time..their time! These dreamers waste their lives but really believe that they’re having fun. Little do they realize that that their path is long and crooked. As I said , responsibility is a very heavy word, but even the weakest person can carry it!

Throughout our travels, we meet, greet, and sleep with other partners. Is this a one time thing..a one night stand ..just to satisfy our hunger..our burning desire..our need for companionship , or is it something more? Most likely, it is too early to tell…we are still practically strangers in the night! Sometime in the future, we decide to get married..make it legal….work on the books ( so to speak) ..have many witnesses…make a big show out of it! But are we really ready for marriage? That is one giant step! It involves too many commitments to discuss here. Are we really and truly committed to spend the rest of our natural lives with only each other? Will there be other intimate relationships outside of marriages because life is long or short depending on your point of view ? Will your love be magnanimous , like the Titanic, seemingly built to endure whatever conditions may arise, but then suddenly disappear from our sight like a falling star? We will not be able to answer that until we reach the end, but we surely can work on it! Apart from love, there has to be TRUTH AND SINCERITY! We cannot return to our homes daily , full of doubts and insecurities .. we should not enter our homes. ..fully dressed with the cloak of questions on our marriages! After a while, these very doubts fester, and infect whatever good feelings we have…thus breaking apart like the Titanic , and we drown in our own dark emotions! Truth and sincerity would have prevented all this! So before you embrace that rollercoaster ride of marriage, think twice! Am I really prepared to live with this person ..be true..be honest..be sincere and to love through thick and thin until the day I die?

Have you ever thought that our lives may be compared to a book? When we are young , that thought would never cross our mind! Obviously , we’ll be thinking of our fun time…maybe our homework or even our crush on someone. Will there be much contemplation on tomorrow? I seriously doubt it! We will be busy enjoying our time with never a thought of tomorrow. Our parents have to ponder over that! Then after a while. we move to a different location or even a new country…make new friends…new crushes…new experiences. Now , is maturity stepping in,,,,are we getting wise,,,do we think of tomorrow? Do we now realize that the road before us is not a simple straight line ? Soon, we will embark on life’s journey,,,,,where our previous outlook on it will be far different than what we anticipated. Our lives will be enriched (or not ) by love…death…jealousy…greed and the rest of the package! Now that we have those experiences , we will reflect on our past …the different choices we made with the corresponding results,,,,,,our past will become sections,,,,,different chapters like a book! Our present situation will be the chapter that we are now writing. Will this be a bestseller …we don’t know! The book is still unfinished. Now is the time we should ask ourselves the main question…..who will write in your book these words….THE END ? Obviously it won’t be you because you never know when the roll will be called up yonder! But , on the other hand, some people can actually write THE END,,, and close the book! Think about it! Who will write THE END in your book? ,,,,Your choice…..

There are so many people who have faced losses…money wise or love or physical …loss of limbs ..eyes..etc..but let us dwell for just a moment on the loss of a loved one. .HOW DO WE FEEL? Are we stressed out…..are we in control of our emotions…..are we happy for some selfish reason? Who knows? We all have our own reasons! We may be in for some money! But what about the genuinely sad ones? Why don’t we put ourselves in their shoes, and feel what they feel? Is it a happy sight just looking at their loved one’s lifeless body who has a single tear at the corner of one of their eyes? What does it feel like trying to restrain someone who is looking at the cremation or the lifeless body being put in their resting ground? It hurts! We have to be on the same wavelength as the sad ones to actually listen to the cries of the anguished and lonely…..then we just may understand. That hurt stays with us as long as we are alive….as long as our hearts are beating,,,as long as our minds can function! Then we are alone regardless of how many people are around us,,..We cry because we know how it feels! Now what about the loved one who is on the brink of leaving this physical world ……how do they feel…we can only guess unless we are there at their very last breath ! I am sure they worry about us and our future…..they probably think of all the wonderful moments they spent, and now they have to say goodbye! HOW SAD! Maybe they did not do enough…or so they think….but everyone knows DEATH is inevitable…..so do the best you can while you are alive…so you have less to worry about……and the living has to remember this….LIFE HAS TO GO ON!

In this world, there are the rich folks ,the poor people and those in the middle …let’s consider ,for a short while ,the rich and the poor because, if we don’t, who else will? Some people are born with silver spoons in their mouths…some attain their riches through hard work or by other means which we should not touch! So , with all that wealth, do they sleep at nights, or do they not sleep at all, but occupy their minds with thoughts of becoming even wealthier? We might say ” uneasy lies the head that wears the crown of wealth! ” Do the rich trample over the poor in their quest for wealth..fame ..power? Or do they realize that there are the little people below , and tread carefully so as not to trample them? Do they make regular donations for the needy, or are they going to take their wealth with them when their names are called to exit this physical world? Will their spirits linger on , grieving over all that was left? Who knows? How do the poor sleep….on the sidewalks…under the bridges..in broken homes…on park benches or somewhere else? Are they worried about tomorrow or not? Some have nothing to worry about because they have absolutely nothing! Some worry about experiencing tomorrow….where to get food…how to pay the bills…the mortgage.. and so much more! How do these people feel? Don’t we care about them? Should the rich carefully listen to the wind, they will hear the cries of agony..of despair..of the suffering of the poor……begging for help!