Month: May 2019

Alcoholism is terrible…should be compared to the living dead. Apart from creating havoc to your loved ones, you are doing the same to society! You will probably steal, cheat or do worse things to feed the parasite. Take a look at yourself in the mirror…both when you’re sober and when you are highly intoxicated…compare the difference. The picture is totally projecting two different personalities…like Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde! Then there is also that endless one person dialogue that drives people crazy. Regardless whether they are in the streets, or in the woods or even at home, people who care still try to help in one way or another .In some cases, there is success, and what joy that brings…..like a resurrection…like a new page..like a brand new day! Sometimes , regardless of how much effort we put in, we still fail…words cannot describe our sorrow..our pain…our disappointment. We even seek the help of the law…..which states that the alcoholics have to make the first move! How can we move a broken car, unless we request the service of a tow truck to take it in for service. There has to be a better way to help our fellow human beings!!

This word is usually delivered with genuine feelings and an expression of deep sorrow. Some people really abuse it and, therefore, this word should not be in their vocabulary! In our daily lives, we hurt people in one way or another ..maybe physically or emotionally! We hit them without any real reason…..maybe we are bullies taking out our anger on weaker people….robbing them of material things or of their innocence …and it doesn’t end there! We sometimes don’t take care of our homes or family! So we figure that by saying SORRY , everything will be forgiven! We feel that we are making our confession in front of the priest, thus absolving ourselves from all wrongdoing..even the emotional abuse of others! So is that it ? Are we on a brand new page…turning over a new leaf? Then we repeat our wrongdoing …relentlessly abusing, lying, cheating and being bullies. To make matters worse, we do this to our loved ones…..and then we again say I AM SORRY..IT WON’T HAPPEN AGAIN! Are we fooling ourselves….is that our nature ?…Why don’t we make an honest effort to do right …then we just may find the peace that we are so desperately seeking? So quit saying SORRY…..let that word rest ! The page with the word “sorry ” should be torn out from the dictionary…and only then , we may be able to replace it by saying “NEED HELP ” ! Please treasure what you have! Why don’t we just enjoy the beautiful things of life,regardless of what little we may have because, soon we will all become dust that will be blown into oblivion,,,,,,and be no more ? Our greatest fear comes from the past because we have experienced it , not from the unknown future, and that’s why the past always haunts us …so will you just let go of ”SORRY” ?

Are we living a lie? Is this our life….is is what we want…. is this what we are? Are we doing this to please anyone….or is this way a getaway from our grief…our past..our disappointment ? Only we can answer this question! We smile when there is nothing to smile about…we laugh when all we want to do is cry….we are among friends when all we want is to be alone! Sometimes we are poor and want to live like rich persons. ..and vice versa. We sometimes change our lifestyle to please someone or to improve our chances at love! Why don’t we just be ourselves and avoid future problems ? Other times we are so traumatized physically and emotionally that we behave in a totally different manner,,,,even our best friends don’t recognize us…but do they try to fathom the reasons behind our change ? Who knows? But do we care? I GUESS NOT ! For us, our behavior ..our life style is normal because that is the frame of mind in which we are! When people are like this, we need to reach out and touch… we need to help…we need to hear their cries ! Living a lie deliberately is not something we should attempt ,,,we are robbing ourselves of our own time …our own lives…let people appreciate us for who we really are. and not our fake images which we are projecting. So don’t waste your lives,,,,believe in yourselves! Stop living a lie……………

Apart from being a word with several letters, it also means a very heavy weight on your shoulders! For some , it may be a joy because they are taking care of their loved ones. We all have responsibility from the time we are very young to the time we expire. Some young ones start taking care of their even younger siblings because of various reasons…they are probably homeless…they have no food…their parents have passed away or are alcoholics! As we become older, we take on more because we wish to do so or out of necessity! We interact with more people and our shoulders become broader. We acquire jobs which require much attention and we stand up to the task, doing our best. We have a family and provide for them unconditionally! Even , in various walks of life, responsibility shows up…we meet and greet it with honor. But not everyone has this built in their character. There are the shirkers who look for loopholes to evade it…procrastination is the thief of time..their time! These dreamers waste their lives but really believe that they’re having fun. Little do they realize that that their path is long and crooked. As I said , responsibility is a very heavy word, but even the weakest person can carry it!

Throughout our travels, we meet, greet, and sleep with other partners. Is this a one time thing..a one night stand ..just to satisfy our hunger..our burning desire..our need for companionship , or is it something more? Most likely, it is too early to tell…we are still practically strangers in the night! Sometime in the future, we decide to get married..make it legal….work on the books ( so to speak) ..have many witnesses…make a big show out of it! But are we really ready for marriage? That is one giant step! It involves too many commitments to discuss here. Are we really and truly committed to spend the rest of our natural lives with only each other? Will there be other intimate relationships outside of marriages because life is long or short depending on your point of view ? Will your love be magnanimous , like the Titanic, seemingly built to endure whatever conditions may arise, but then suddenly disappear from our sight like a falling star? We will not be able to answer that until we reach the end, but we surely can work on it! Apart from love, there has to be TRUTH AND SINCERITY! We cannot return to our homes daily , full of doubts and insecurities .. we should not enter our homes. ..fully dressed with the cloak of questions on our marriages! After a while, these very doubts fester, and infect whatever good feelings we have…thus breaking apart like the Titanic , and we drown in our own dark emotions! Truth and sincerity would have prevented all this! So before you embrace that rollercoaster ride of marriage, think twice! Am I really prepared to live with this person ..be true..be honest..be sincere and to love through thick and thin until the day I die?