Month: January 2019

Have you ever hurt someone…really hurt someone? Maybe you didn’t think about it or you were just so insensitive ..You probably did it with your actions, facial expressions or words or even your thoughts.. regardless what language you speak or what culture you have! A HURT IS A HURT!! You may see how the other person feels by the expression..body language or even their mood…..but you can never FEEL what they feel. That sad moment just changes everything for them and that may cause a huge chain reaction even leading to extreme sad results! So please , try not to hurt people! It is always said Time heals everything….So what! Time heals but the SCARS REMAIN!!

,,,,,,Aah…those restless years….what a thrilling ride through life! There was no one but us….so much fun, and nothing to hold us back,,,. It was a tremendous roller-coaster ride…lots of ups and downs!! It was a dream made in heaven , being the stars..director and producer of this awesome adventure.. we had the world in our hands,, and both the sunshine and moonlight were at our disposal … We created our own sunshine and moonlight as the occasion required! So much joy …. moving from one place to another ,without any regrets or uncertain thoughts of the future. It was an exciting ride on the Bullet Train…we were the onlookers of the world retreating behind us. A pair of stars….that was what we were….shooting across the dark sky!,,,,We were the rain washing away all our burdens…,,,,,..aah..those were the days………………………..,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,Now i awake from that oh so beautiful dream,, grab my walker and shakily make my way to the kitchen!!

Never forget your past or your present…..All those people who helped you to be where you are today,,,,at this moment!!! It just may be a fleeting thing to you….but it is very important….your parents took care of you when you were little….PHYSICALLY as well as emotionally ,,,,how would you have survived??? I guess you would have been a part of forgotten history…. YOUR true friends have been by your side……protecting……….advising …..supporting….So how about your Acquaintances? i am sure they helped!!! But it is not only about that…..It is what is in your HEART….Do you remember the things people did for you???/ No matter what you feel now……… this memory should be with you…..I have lost a lot….and have been hurt ,,,, but i still did not forget,,,,,,,Sisters are Very important….. I really wish mine was here to support me in my time of need!! i remember that my sister bought a record about over 40 years ago….. i still have that record….. this song is one she loved,,,,,,,as i said….never FORGET!!! THIS IS THE SONG…….

Do not harbor ill feelings towards people….That just may be your downfall…. you will end up in an abyss of darkness….and you may never be out again….Your heart will be blackened….your soul will be lost!…Is this how you want to be? I think not! It is better to be who you are……do not let the world change you….you are different. … Life is so short….. you make your own decisions…..Believe and trust them..

. Don’t feel regret later……..There is only one life to live! Make the most of it…..Spirituality. are we all going to the same place? I know not! Life is so short….Will anger and regret erode everything? I hope not! After all is said and done……you will be remembered as the person you were. . And Not the the person you wanted to be….When people hurt you…..think of it as a lesson…..learn from it…….maybe you will still be hurt. But never give up……like a love story….but this time..it is not fiction. It is Fact!!

One look at you and I am mesmerized. My whole world revolves around you! And what a celestial feeling this is….I am in a hypnotic state and I love it! Nothing can be compared to you. Whenever I listen to you, I enter another dimension where we are all alone…forever! I feel as if I am drugged and in dreamland.. You linger always in my mind..and I am unable to think of anything else! I can live without food….simply because you are ever present in my heart..You nourish me and make me whole….and I love you for that..Whether i am asleep or awake , you are always by my side.. ,,when i am alone you comfort me,,,,you dry my inner tears and bring joy,,,sunshine into my dreary soul, you are my sunshine..you are my darkness. ,,..Please reside forever by my side! Because I love you!

Posted on January 13, 2019

Am i the LIGHT OR AM I THE DARKNESS? What do i bring out in people? Do they hate me? Do i bring out their worst fears…and their worst nightmares? DO I ALWAYS GIVE THEM REASON TO DOUBT MY HONESTY….MY SINCERITY,,,,,MY LOVE? …Whatever i do, is it always wrong? Over the years, did i stray from the path of innocence? righteousness ? Probably , i am the light! I really do care about people…..regardless family or strangers.!!! I will willingly give my life to make my family happy….. i DO DEEDS WITHOUT EVEN THE VERY THOUGHT OF HAVING ANYTHING in return! ….I will trade all that i have to see them happy………So who am i ? Darkness or Light? ..Will it not be better just to dream instead of being just a pawn this game which is labelled LIFE??

As i lovingly gaze into her dull eyes, i feel a deep sense of sadness and painful regret that all those years that were spent in arguments and heated discussions were wasted terribly. The spark in her eyes that was there before is gone! Now there is just an empty space staring back at me. That is my life staring back ! GONE ARE THOSE EXCITING DAYS THAT WE SPENT TOGETHER,,,,the hardship ,,,,the sacrifices we made.. the love we had. Time , with its unrelenting force , has crushed everything. Or should we put the blame on people? We each made our own choices ,,,,thus we cannot blame others for our misfortune. Now it is too late to even imagine the very thought or recapturing those memorable moments. People change with time…..they move with the tide! Come what may, we have no choice but to accept it ! Or should we just live in dreams until that time when we can dream no more?

SADNESS lives in all of us…It is a parasite which rears its head ever so often and we can’t figure how to deal with it..It may be dormant or active, but it is present! It is the offspring of depression and loneliness…..two formidable parents. Little by little this shadow of darkness /sadness creep into our hearts and reach our very souls causing us immense pain be it physical or emotional,,but , nevertheless we have to deal with it,,,We can seek companionship,,,,confide in others,,,,seek professional help or ,,,in my case,,,walk hand in hand with it ….be its friend, and then and only then it will not hurt you,, thus it may allow at least a little ray of sunshine to touch your hearts and allow them (hearts) to get stronger…….facing the day……..SADNESS..hate it or date it,,your choice!